INFORMAL BOND

Stemming from the deep is a feeling far beyond what we can fathom. it thrives on our weakness, and lives on our regrets and sorrows right from the cradle. This cradle snatcher that lives on the sorrow in the heart of men is no respecter of person and seeks to draw blood whenever the soul requires, destroying the mind of its fortitude with which it seeks to protect itself. An uncanny feeling of being unwanted without a glimpse of hope yet to come. Basking in the knowledge of the disaster that still awaits us, and our heads, atone to its song. Speaking of tomorrow knowing today was no better and relishing the dream of unknown future. An Informal Bond it is called, we revere it because of the hold it has on us, binding us to the deep crevices of our past and leaving us with guilt that cannot be weighed by actions or words. It has the power to either heal us or damage us forever. A knowledge remaining constant in our minds that we cannot choose the family from whence this affection is got. From birth it is expected that the love that abides with us supersedes all other human emotions but what happens when we don't get the love we are so deserving of; altering our ages in some many ways either making us grow beyond our years or altering our age till our existence become a childlike symphony. Issues surrounding our growth have the ability to destroy new relationships we have decided to invest in, no matter how much we think we can put into, we find ourselves emotionally bankrupt and physically drained because the issues that have been a block becomes a means of survival. We barricade our hearts with our own wisdom making sure no one can penetrate enough to have the power to hurt us. Then someone decides to loves us and although we have decided to love that being in return, we find our spirit willing but our flesh weak because our mind has decided to control our very existence; therefore we try to break all the rules looking for a loophole in the agreement we have made with our mind, but without finding one, we renege on the agreement letting our mind laugh us silently to scorn because it knows that payback is near. Coming for a pound of flesh, it destroys our peace and makes unhappiness our forte and leaves us destitute and hopeless all because we never sought cleansing from childhood hurts and woes that have plagued us eternally. Without this cleansing we cannot attain the progress we want, but can only abide within ourselves blocking all entrance to our hearts. Healing will come if we let it, the ghost from the past can no longer destroy us if we fight to conquer with God and love on our side. Dedicated to people from abusive homes and negative upbringing that negatives emotions have destroyed love